Life, Thoughts

Stepping Up the Standard

How does it feel to be standardized by others? Forceful and atrocious isn’t it? Yep, that’s what I feel these past few months since the first time I stepped my feet in Depok. University is a place where people were battling against what aspect in life should they pursue to make its future brighter than ever. It’s not easy specially for students who were accepted through the non-test procedure offered by the University. They will have a very hard transition in doing homework, clinging with the lecturers, and most of them will occur depression in finding social mates that is perfect for them. But, some of these students have high hopes in studying in such different format and ambience because they’re the ones who were introvert in interacting with people, and pretty well-known when the others saw ’em for the first time. This might be an issue to me (not talking about how I interact with people) when I raised my standard to compete in the journey of getting a Bachelor Degree.

First of all, I have no idea that I must take extravagant miles to muddle through the rocks placed in college. One of them is what Indonesians will mostly call “Ospek”. This “Ospek” is literally killing me slowly. Newcomers were pushed to its limit by completing each tasks given by the seniors in a very short gap of time. Even though, they said that it is a must for us to do it for the sake of showing them how “together” are we as a newcomers in this faculty. But I think it is somehow unnecessary for us to do such tasks because at the end of the day, we will be completing each other as time goes by where we as individuals need people surrounding us for some kind of special help. However, this phase of living as a college student learns a thing to me. Raising your standard is the key, the only key to sucessfully pass the test.

People doesn’t take that extra step because they think it’s useless for some reasons. They might think that by not raising their standards in life helps him to be more versatile as if they’re so called “unique”. In this matter though, we must know ourselves and how we must survive this world. Students mock each other, teens slits their hands because of bullying problems, adults perform suicidal phenomenons, you name it. Have you been asking yourselves lately on how are we supposed to do to survive ourselves from these catastrophic moments?

Well, as a Christian we truly have to rely on the Bible. God’s words heal, and God’s word provide answers.

Isaiah 59:19 “So shall they fear the name of the Lord from the west and His glory from the rising of the sun. When the enemy shall come in like a flood, the Spirit of the Lord shall lift up a standard against him.”

I know that God will provide me everything I need in life, such as this one. His strength is inevitably irresistible. What Isaiah had said is too true for me. “The Spirit of the Lord shall lift up a standard against him.” caught my attention as I was reading it through. This is where the sign of people gets confused of how God works in their lives. God will give you Its strength if you believe in Him, and you should believe in Him in order for God to really penetrates through your life. Raising your standard this way will give us such blessings that other people might not have. He will give you the full guidance of how to face problems, dealing with people, and most of all, surviving this world. But, He will only give it to the person who have brought his life to the hands of God, because that’s the only way God can connect with us, the fallen human beings.

This verse really comforts me to the very end. No matter how people judge you, no matter how they dislike you in various ways, but if God had raised your standards, I believe that we will pass the test with a perfect score.


Immenseful Consecration

Came back to my writing session while spending my free time before something seriously hectic approaches me.

This writing was published regarding my decision in pouring out my feelings about getting the greatest blessing and acceptance in life. 

 I wanted to share my once in a lifetime experience. After waiting for the longest period of time in my life, my greatest achievement has finally been completed and achieved. Here is why:

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Yes, I was accepted in one of the most prestigious universities in Indonesia. I am currently a prospective student in University of Indonesia, majoring in Faculty of Computer Science. Finally, my dream come truer than ever. Believe it or not, I had readily endowed myself for the upcoming entrance tests in other universities available. I traveled through Bali, Jogja and finally Malang, where the journey ended.

When I first hop on my computer to check the announcement, I am very certain in thinking that I won’t make it again this time. As soon as I typed my test number, the word ‘congratulation’ felicitated me. I am pretty much exhilarated and in awe when it congratulates me.

I called my mom and my friends immediately after the commencement being apprized. One of my best friends wasn’t so sure until she checked it by herself. She was in pure shock after what she had seen on her computer screen. Everyone congratulated me that FINALLY I am accepted at the university my heart had been wanting since day one. All my hard works had been paid off at that time.

I did enjoy getting appraisals from people I loved, but mostly, I enjoyed God’s work in my life. This is one of His many beautiful works He has done.

God has been so cautious to me since I was put in the situation where my heart was unsteady. I always pray ever since I was challenged to lock horns against my rivals. I thought that I wouldn’t make it. But I believe, that everything is certain when God intervened through it. I believe that God could do anything exceptionally inconceivable when we put our trust in Him. This is why I am trying to seek Him even more as time passed by. Our future was certainly set by us, but God has something that could amp it up to look even more wonderful in our eyes, and in His eyes.

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. – Isaiah 41:10


What We Know and How We Perceive Reality

Very interesting and thoughtful topic regarding Christianity and mere religion 👏

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There are many that believe perception is reality, but is that true? Mystics, theologians, and philosophers have contemplated how we perceive and understand reality for centuries. There has been this ongoing consensus that what we perceive to be reality is, in fact, not reality at all. The film The Matrix explores the concept of reality as it symbolically illustrates that what we perceive to be reality is, in fact, an illusion potentially created by other beings. In The Allegory of the Cave from Plato’s The Republic, this same topic is addressed with imagery of chained men in a cave with their perception controlled by others who manipulate shadows like puppets. Rene Decartes’ Meditation of First Philosophy from Meditation I of The Things of Which We May Doubt expresses his perception changing over time as he realized that everything he believed was nothing more than an impression…

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Bali has become one of the most visited island by most foreigners outside Indonesia. This can be one of the impressions when it comes to the name of our country. 3,27 million foreigners in estimation, visited Bali in 2013. Statistics said that over 300k foreigners came to Bali every month in 2015. Can you imagine how popular this island became to the world? It indeed is undoubtedly popular.

I planned a trip years ago with my best friends to sojourn Bali for a week, and it is finally executed this year. We were discussing about where we were headed, how’s the budget, where to stay, and so on. I offered them to stay in my house for the whole week as the replacement of hotel in Bali, it was more reliable and much cheaper than to stay for a week in a hotel. But they rejected my offering considering there’s my dad inhabiting the house that they feel unwelcoming because they didn’t know my dad, and vice versa. Therefore, they booked a hotel near the airport in Kuta called, H Sovereign Hotel. Twas a chic hotel styled in the middle of Kuta, cheap, narrow to every places possible, good choice HAHAHA.

We then booked a ticket with some kind of hassle, because of the price ranges! So, we decided to choose a flight which was pretty late that our arrival was at 11pm Bali timezone. We set up the meeting place in the airport but no one shows up in our group chat telling where they were at that time (this is funny I’m serious). FINALLY, we gathered up together grabbing some meals for our pre-flight dinner, talking about how’s life going, what was the updates we have not been told (pretty much gossiping I’m not gonna lie). It is now the time to flew to Ngurah Rai (which was the name of the International airport in Bali), got picked up by a driver, were dropped off to the places we were supposed to stay.

In Bali, our itineraries were pretty much sucks, but at least we’ve got some fun times bonding together after such long long time! We went to several hip places such as Motel Mexicola, Karma Kandara, Finn’s Beach Club, you name it (if you’re a Balinese please do suggest in below places we should visit for the next upcoming trip). I kept in my mind this one place called Nasi Pedas Ibu Andika as a highlight of our trip to Bali this year. This restaurant can be procured as a restaurant with the spiciest, most tastiest (yes I put most I know) food ever. It has a variety of food that pleases your taste buds, and specifically the spiciest sambal in which it was made as a compliment to the rice dish by Ibu Andika. If any of you were planning to come to Bali anytime soon, you MUST try the rice dish in this place, it was DELICIOUS.

Here’s a pic of the rice dish at Nasi Pedas Ibu Andika:

The legendary rice dish in Bali!

Despite all of these fun stuffs, I know that I can do nothing without God who guide me throughout this trip from start to the end. I was assured by His grace that I was safe and sound while doing my summer trip to Bali this year. Therefore, I thank Him for every second that He had paid for me to keep me safe from harassing moments, capturing His creation in the midst of an unrelenting tongue-twisted week. All glory to God the one and only Lord of all lords.



This year’s challenges were pretty tough to me. It has been a very furious and rip-roaring year for me to overcome. It ain’t over yet, well at least until I can acquire one chair for my higher education level. I went through so many hard times when it comes to fulfilling my desire in getting to a good university. My parents and I started to altercate about registering me into some bimbel, possibly the best one available in Jakarta. But of course, I was upset by that time when they suffocate this way of thinking. As time goes by, I went more and more interested in having someone taught me subjects that I’ve never studied before (well some of it).

So there it goes the enrollment, was objected in Inten, I was considered as the ‘smart ones’ amongst my competitors, pretty remarkable isn’t it? The bimbel started on August 5th, where I got nothing except my pride HAHA. I know not a single person in my class, except my friend from my old school, Aya. We both struggle together for the first 2 weeks, then continue on joyfully with our new friends until the D-day came in sight. The test was called ‘SBMPTN’ designed to selectively obtain students to get into the best university with their desired faculties. Admittedly, I failed to gain the jewel from this test. Although I know, I have done my best (maybe not that best) but I believe God has planned beautiful things ahead of me. Immediately after the national announcement were being commenced, I started to apply various universities in Singapore and Malaysia, because they were the ones I aim the most for my future, and also that they were two countries with the most developing situation happened right now globally. That might work as an opportunity for me to grab in, so that my desire in studying abroad and in a higher level, will be acquired!

I believe that by some of my actions, God put His unrelenting hands upon what I’ve done, what I’ve been through, and what I’ve experienced through this nerve-breaking life. Now, because of those factors, I rely more on God’s scenario in shaping my future, while I do the rest to accomplish it.